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Name: Brandon
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 6/7/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: ummmmm....... acting, power tools, explosions, i guess there's more, but i'm not sure what
Expertise: acting, love making, u know, the usual
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  bs3339
Yahoo:  saltineshain
Member Since:
3/14/2004
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| Alright, it's been awhile since I've posted I know, but I have something that I need to say. I realized tonight and over the last few nights in green room that I've always been able to say, "hey, we've got the rest of the year." but what happens when you can't say that anymore. when you can't even say, "hey, we've still got tomorrow"? what happens when tomorrow becomes today, or even worse, yesterday. I remeber a time when i couldn't wait to grow up, to be on my own, and now it's my worst fear. I haven't been afraid of anything in soooo long because i've always been able to say, "hey, i've got the rest of the year with these people" but what i'm afraid of now, truly afraid of is that i'm gonna wake up and it's gonna be tomorrow, that i won't be able to say that i've got another day to spend with the people that i love. The worst part is that I know that it's coming up soon. in less than a year from now i'm gonna be saying goodbye to calvert county, to northern high, to everyone that i've grown to know and love in these last 4 or more years. I use to envy those that were older than me because they had such a tight bond with each other, but i wish so much that i could be a freshman at the very least again because that year in green room, i didn't shed a tear, but this year i completely lost control of myself and i cried and cried thinking that this can't be how theatre ends for me. but the horrible thing is that this was the final page in my high school theatre career. tonight was the last time that i will take the stage of northern high school as an actor. tonight was the last time that i will truly be a theatre person. It's funny, i used to try and hide the fact that i acted because i was embarrased by it, but now, i'm so glad that I've done theatre for these last 4 years because i've gotten to know some people that without them in my life, i honestly don't think that i've had made it through 10th grade. I never told anyone this, but there were nights when i felt like things were so bad that i just wanted to end it all, that i thought about taking my own life, but the knowledge of my friends stopped me. after this year is over, i don't know what i'm going to do. i'm not gonna be able to just talk to my friends that i've grown so close with whenever i want, tomorrow will be yesterday, and that is the only thing that i fear. | | |
| phrase of the day for me today... "Oh fuck"
So this morning i'm driving to school with my friends brock and chris in the car and we go to switch lanes and a guy on a motorcycle tries to close the gap. Me being in a car i speed up and go over and then proceed to flick him off and chris does the same. when we get to a red light, the big man on the motorcycle pulled up alongside of my car and started hitting chris' door and yelling and flicking us off.
I put that out of my mind on the drive home only to get a speeding ticket. i almost got worse cause when the cop flagged me down, i thought he was telling me that this one road was closed (he did it at a fork in the road) and so i just kept on going. this needless to say will really piss a cop off. he caught up to me and made me come back, told me i was going 48 in a 30 but put it down as 39 in a 30. He told me to take it to court and challenge it and i will, but this was not a good day for driving for me, and going back to the phrase of the day, i said that at least 10 times today. | | |
| pray for those affected by the catastrophic events that occured in New Orleans and the south. Put your problems aside for a few moments and pray for the safety of those who have gone missing, and that comfort will come to those who have lost a loved one. Take just one moment out of your day, and pray for them... | | |
| NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! ANYTHING BUT THIS, PLEASE NO, NOT THIS TORTURE, THIS HELL, DO ANYTHING BUT THIS, NOT...NOT...SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!
summer has come to an end my friend
and school is just around the bend | | |
| There are those out there who think that they can force others to conform to their wills. There are those out there that think that people will flee from them in the face of tyranny, they think that people will allow for heinous acts of violence to be committed and all that the people will do is cower in fear. What those who commit these actions do not realize is that they are attacking generations that rebeled against conformity, and stuck the middle finger to anyone trying to opress them. These attacks were intended to scare people, to intimidate, but what the attackers did not realize is that these attacks unify people, they do not scare them, they cause the people to stand and yell, YOU DIDN'T TAKE ME DOWN, YOU'LL NEVER TAKE US DOWN!!! It causes the people who are left in the aftermath of destruction to come back with a fericous fury and strike back against those who attempted to force their wills on others. We never were very good at following what people wanted us to do. | | |
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